10日下午，市区一家西餐厅。斯文、内敛的小伙小辙（化名），向记者讲述了感染上艾滋病的经历。
曾经有段刻骨爱恋
上学开始，我就隐约感觉，自己和别的男生不一样。
比如见到漂亮女生，我没有心动的感觉，相反却会偷偷关注长相英俊、帅气的男生。
20岁那年，我在深圳工作。一次，我在公共厕所墙壁上，发现很多男同性恋者的交友信息。我偷偷留下一人联系方式，并约他见了面。
那一回，我第一次与同性拥抱和接吻，既感觉到刺激，又觉得煎熬：“我怎么这个样子？我为什么会是同性恋？”
一连两个月，我想到这事就恶心，辞职回到老家襄阳。此后，父母给我张罗过对象，但就是没感觉。
2007年底，我在交友论坛上认识了风（化名），一见钟情。
我觉得风是最懂我的人，我到武汉和他见面，并真正拥有了对方。
半年后，我干脆辞职去了武汉，和风住在一起。我们像男女朋友一样，一起买菜做饭、一起出去玩，十分甜蜜。
后来我渐渐发现，我并不是风的唯一，他还和多人发生过性关系。伤心欲绝的我，总和他吵架，2009年5月我们彻底分手。
感染艾滋病痛苦不堪
我沉浸在失恋痛苦中无法自拔。半年后，我尝试接触别的男生来转移伤痛，先后通过论坛认识了几个人。
今年3月初，我在“同志”QQ群里认识了迷迷(化名)。他是同性恋防艾志愿团体“襄阳自由G地工作组”的志愿者。
一次，迷迷带我到他工作的地方玩。我身体不太好，经常感冒，他建议我用口腔唾液试纸做艾滋病快速检测。
没想到这一查，我的检测结果为“阳性”。虽然迷迷不停宽慰我这只是初筛，并不是最终结果。但那一刻，我仍感觉天仿佛塌下来了。
后来，我到疾控中心抽血确认，结果还是一样：阳性。
我从没想过艾滋病离我这么近，那段时间我痛苦极了，一想到自己很快就要死了，眼泪随时就会掉下来。
为了父母我要活下去
在我最痛苦的日子里，市疾控中心艾滋病性病科工作人员，以及自由G地志愿者，给了我很多鼓励。
他们随时解答我的疑问，陪我聊天，为我出主意，还通过其他“同志”感染者的故事告诉我，只要积极治疗，就能有效控制病情，甚至终生都不发病。
在他们的鼓励下，我开始抗病毒治疗。几个月下来，我的免疫功能恢复得很快，目前已基本恢复到了正常水平。
疾控人员告诉我，以目前情况来看，我的寿命基本上和正常人无异。这更加坚定了我继续治疗和生活的信心。
我曾一度不愿面对染病的事实，但后来想通了，如果所有感染者都不正视，只会让越来越多人在无知中被感染，也许他们正是我们深爱的人，却从此和我一样不幸。
想到这些，我立即与以前交往过的朋友联系，提醒他们可能感染了艾滋病应尽快检测。
令我伤心的是，他们却像躲瘟疫一样躲着我。一听说我染上艾滋病，一男生张口就骂：“你都这样了，就不要再出去害人了！”
还有一个男生接到我的电话后，冷冰冰地对我说：“请你以后都不要再和我联系！”
我想我一辈子都逃离不了被歧视的生活。但不管怎样，我还是希望有更多的人能重视艾滋病，积极预防，不要像我一样悔恨。
如今，我已能坦然面对感染事实，我唯一的想法就是好好活下去，把以前想做的事做完，同时努力工作，报答年迈父母的养育之恩。
【现状】
每20个男同性恋，就有1人染艾滋
市疾控中心介绍，截至目前，襄阳新发现艾滋病病毒感染者中，92.31%的人通过性接触感染，其中异性传播占65.38%，同性传播占26.92%。男男同性恋人群艾滋病感染形势越来越严峻。
今年4月至7月，设立在襄阳的6个国家级艾滋病监测哨点，分别对暗娼、吸毒者、男男同性性行为者、男性性病门诊就诊者、孕产妇和男性长途汽车司乘人员等6类人群，各选400人进行监测。结果在男男同性性行为人群中，共发现艾滋病毒初筛阳性者18人，监测感染率高达4.5%，几乎每20个男同性恋中，就有1人感染艾滋病。
艾滋病防治专家、市疾控中心副主任龚文胜介绍，目前襄阳市区约有男同性恋活跃人群3000人，艾滋病在这一群体中的流行形势已非常严峻，如果现在还不采取有效措施加以控制，后果不堪设想。
他说，官方防艾工作人员出去开展干预工作，往往遭到“同志”人群排斥，目前本地“同志”人群间的宣传、检测工作，大多数由“同志”志愿者组成的“自由G地”工作组负责。
虽然很多“同志”欣然接受“自由G地”工作组的宣传和检测，但还有更多潜藏的人不敢面对“同志”身份，怕曝光，更害怕艾滋病。
另外，男性同性恋者发生性行为时，更易发生黏膜损伤。这一点虽然很多人都清楚，但他们往往抱着侥幸的心理，仍不愿采取安全措施。
相当一部分人对自己和同伴盲目信任，结果与不知情的感染者发生高危性行为，导致严重后果。
如何让潜藏的“同志”走出来正视这个问题？如何让那些不喜欢带安全套的朋友改变行为？这些都是目前防艾工作面临的难题。
【提醒】
高危行为后检测应成常态
龚文胜认为，“同性恋”和“艾滋病”这些标签的双重歧视，造成这一群体更加隐蔽，更难发现。
要改变“同志”人群艾滋病感染的严峻形势，除“同志”人群自身要提高健康安全意识，避免发生高危性行为外，还需要整个社会对这一群体给予更多理解和关爱。
龚文胜说，在我国迫于社会和家庭压力，大多数男同性恋都非常隐蔽，都不敢公开自己的性取向，并且都会选择与异性结婚。“同志”人群同时存在着双性性行为，这使得艾滋病由高危人群向一般人群扩散，因此男同性恋者如今正成为感染和传播艾滋病毒的核心人群之一。
这就要求社会能更多地理解宽容他们，只有这样，才能让他们正视自己的性取向，积极配合有关部门开展干预工作。
龚文胜告诉记者，每年12月1日世界艾滋病日以后，接受艾滋病检验的人会比平常月份多两到三倍，市民往往要等宣传之后才重视自己的健康，这令人忧心。
龚文胜提醒，艾滋病检测应成为常态，尤其是发生高危行为后，三个月过后一定要进行检测，以做到早发现、早治疗。同志人群可到自由G地咨询和检测，电话15717862907；QQ61498419。
【记者手记】
远离艾滋，生命无价
工作3年，这不是我第一次采访艾滋病感染者。
2009年，华师附小小学生与卧龙镇艾滋病村孩子牵手联谊，有个因母婴传播染上艾滋病的男孩，一整天没说一句话，一直默默地站在人群外。他的沉默，刺痛了我的心。
2010年，艾滋病感染者陈斌（化名），在隐姓埋名多年后，勇敢接受记者采访，他无奈的表情，令我至今记忆犹新。
2011年，感染者小辙坐在我的面前，虽然每说一句话他都带着微笑，但我仍能感受到他刻意坚强背后的孤独无助。
小辙说，他下了很大的决心，才愿意接受采访，他希望有生之年，能为别人做点事，能让自己的故事警醒更多人。
但为了他们，艾滋病感染者这个群体，我们又能做些什么？
采访过程中，小辙伸手斟茶。我其实一点也不渴，却装作不经意，拿起水杯就喝；采访结束，已到吃晚饭时间，我拍拍他的肩膀：要不我们去约个会共进晚餐？
我希望，他能感受到来自我的真诚和温暖。
我能做的，也只能是把内心深处的感触告诉大家：远离艾滋，生命无价，珍惜生活，永不放弃。
HIV-infected gay men who want to live confession to parents
At 09:05 on November 17, 2011 Sports Network - Express money Rong Chu
10 afternoon, a city restaurant. Gentle, introverted guy little rut (a pseudonym), told reporters about infected with HIV experience.
Once upon a deep-seated love
School started, I felt vaguely that he and other boys are not the same.
For example see the beautiful girl, I do not have the feeling heart, but instead secretly concerned about the handsome, handsome boy.
20 years old, I work in Shenzhen. I once in a public toilet wall, found that many gay men dating information. I secretly leaving one contact, and some he met.
Of that back, my first same-sex hugging and kissing with both feeling stimulated, and that suffering: "how do I look like this? Why am I gay?"
Consecutive two months, I think this matter on the nausea, Xiangyang resigned to return home. Since then, my parents get together over the object, but they did not feel.
The end of 2007, my friends on the forum know the wind (a pseudonym), love at first sight.
I think the wind is the most people I know, I went to Wuhan to meet him, and really have each other.
Six months later, I just resign to Wuhan, and wind to live together. We like male and female friends, buy food to cook together, go out to play, very sweet.
Later, I gradually discovered that I was not only the wind, and the people he had sex with. I am heartbroken, the sum of his fight, in May 2009 we completely broke.
Painful HIV
I am immersed in the pain of lost love can not extricate themselves. Six months later, I am trying to contact the other boys to divert the pain, has met several people through the Forum.
Early March this year, I am "comrades" QQ group met Mimi in (a pseudonym). He is a gay AIDS prevention volunteer groups, "Yangyang free work group G" of volunteers.
Once, stumbled took me to his work place to play. I am not feeling well, often cold, he suggested I do the saliva test strip rapid HIV testing.
I did not expect this investigation, my test results as "positive." Although Mimi just kept reassuring me that screening is not the end result. But that moment, I still feel as if the day fall down.
Later, I went to the CDC blood confirmed that the result was the same: positive.
I never thought about AIDS from me so close, that time I was very painful, the thought of his going to die soon, the tears will fall off at any time.
To parents I want to live
In my most painful days, the city CDC AIDS and STD Division staff, and free G to volunteer, give me a lot of encouragement.
They always answer my questions, chat with me, for my ideas, but also by other "comrade" told me the story of those infected, as long as the active treatment, can effectively control the disease, not disease or even a lifetime.
Their encouragement, I began to antiviral therapy. A few months, my immune function recovered quickly, has recovered to normal levels.
Disease control officer told me, with the present situation, my life basically, and normal people. This is further strengthened my confidence to continue treatment and life.
I was once unwilling to face the fact that disease, but later figured out that if all infected persons are not addressed, will only make more and more people were infected in ignorance, perhaps they are the people we love, but Since then, like me, unfortunately.
Think of these, I immediately had contacts with the previous contact friends to remind them may be infected with HIV testing as soon as possible.
I am sad that they are avoiding me like a hide like the plague. I heard that I have contracted AIDS, a boys mouth shout: "You are so, and out of harm would not have had!"
I also received a call from the boys, said to me coldly: "Please do not ever contact me again!"
I think I'll never escape from life can not be discriminated against. But anyway, I hope more people can attach importance to AIDS, active prevention, not as I do regret.
Now, I have to openly face the fact that infection, my only idea is to live on, to want to do done before, while working hard to repay elderly parents upbringing.
[Status]
Every 20 gay men, there is one HIV-infected
City CDC, as at present, Xiangyang newly discovered HIV, the 92.31% of people infected through sexual contact, heterosexual transmission accounted for 65.38% of them, homosexual transmission accounted for 26.92%. HIV infection among gay men has become more critical situation.
April to July, the establishment of the national AIDS Xiangyang six sentinel sites, respectively, of sex workers, drug users, men who have sex with men, male STD clinic attenders, pregnant women and male coaches and passengers, etc. 6 kinds of people, 400 of the election monitoring. Results in male homosexual male population, were found positive for HIV screening were 18 to monitor the infection rate as high as 4.5%, almost one in 20 gay men, there is a person infected with HIV.
AIDS experts, CDC deputy director Gong Wensheng City, currently active in Xiangyang urban population of about 3,000 gay men, HIV prevalence in this group the situation is very serious, if we do not take effective measures to control consequences would be unthinkable.
He said the staff went out to carry out the official AIDS prevention interventions, are often victims of "gay" people excluded, the local "gay" propaganda among the crowd, testing work, most of the "comrades" volunteers "to free G" working group.
Although many "comrades" to embrace "free G to" work group of publicity and testing, but there are more people afraid to face the hidden "gay" identity, fear of exposure, more afraid of AIDS.
In addition, male homosexual sex, the more susceptible to mucosal injury. This point is many people are aware, but they tend to hold the psychological luck, still unwilling to take safety measures.
Considerable number of people themselves and their fellow blind trust, the result of an infected person with knowledge of high-risk sexual behavior, lead to serious consequences.
How to make hidden "comrades" to come out to address this problem? How to make those friends do not like to change behavior with condoms? These are the challenges facing AIDS prevention work.
[Remind]
After the detection of high-risk behavior should become the norm
Gong Wensheng that "gay" and "AIDS" The labels of the double discrimination, resulting in this group is more subtle, harder to find.
To change the "comrades" of the grim situation of AIDS infection, in addition to "gay" people to improve their own health and safety awareness, avoid high-risk sexual behavior, but also the whole community for this group to give more understanding and caring.
Gong Wensheng said, in our social and family pressure forced most gay men are very subtle, are afraid to open their own sexual orientation, and with the opposite sex would choose to marry. "Comrade," the simultaneous existence of bisexual people having sex, which makes the high-risk groups of AIDS to the general population, so gay men today are becoming infected and transmitting HIV is one of the core group.
This requires that the community can be more tolerant understanding of them, the only way to make them face their own sexual orientation, and actively cooperate with relevant departments to carry out interventions.
Gong Wensheng told reporters on December 1 each year on World AIDS Day after the acceptance of HIV testing people more than the usual two to three times in January, people often have to wait until after publicity attention to their health, which is worrying.
Gong Wensheng reminder, HIV testing should become the norm, especially in high-risk behavior occurs, the test must be carried out after three months, to ensure early detection and early treatment. G can be to free comrades crowd to counseling and testing, telephone 15717862907; QQ61498419.
[Reporter's notes]
Away from AIDS, life is priceless
For three years, this is not the first time I interviewed people living with HIV.
In 2009, the China Wolong Town Elementary School students and AIDS Friendship Village, children in hand, there is a result of mother to child transmission of HIV infected boy, did not say a word all day, has been quietly standing in the crowd outside. His silence, hurt my heart.
In 2010, AIDS Bin (pseudonym), after many years in anonymity, told reporters brave, his expression of frustration, I still remember.
In 2011, infected a small frog sitting in front of me, though every word he said with a smile, but I can still feel his strong deliberately behind the helpless.
Little frog said, he made a lot of determination, was willing to be interviewed, he hopes alive, do something for others, make their own story alert more people.
But for them, this group of people living with HIV, we can do?
During the interview, pour a small frog hand. Actually, I is not thirsty, but pretending to casual, pick up the cup to drink; end of the interview, the time has come to dinner, I patted his shoulder: either we will go about a dinner?
I hope he can feel from my sincerity and warmth.
I can do, can only be the innermost feelings to tell you: stay away from AIDS, life is priceless, cherish life, never give up.
